Sunny Saturday

The sun is shining and not a cloud in the sky today in the burgh… to bad the temperature couldn’t match the sky as its a chilly 35 degrees out… brrrrrrr… so currently all of the animals are curled up in their weekend spots (Emmy in front of one of the heat vents, Samson on the pillow pile on the couch, and Minnie sprawled out across the other half of the couch)… they’ll be out cold until this afternoon probably… just how our weekends seem to go these days… ūüôā

Last night I stopped at the local fish fry and picked up dinner for myself and my grandma… and how excited was I to find out the perogies were homemade this week!!! whooo hooo… I picked up a couple pieces of pound cake took and homemade “hoho’s” which Steve demolished when he got home…

Today I’m meeting my first blogger friends in real life!!! ūüôā so excited!!! Tiffany from SimplyShaka¬†isvisiting Pittsburgh for a few days and so I’ll be meeting up with her, one of her friends and Whitney from the 412 view.¬† I have to admit I’m a bit nervous but will be calling on my networking skills I picked up in Chicago to help me out haha…

I’m sure we’ll have a blast and I definitely need to defuse from school, work and the stress of this residency/intership placement… hope everyone has a fab first day of the weekend!!!

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Chicaaaaaago

So as some of you may know I spent the last 4 1/2 days in the city of Chicago at the American College of Healthcare Executives Congress as a Student Associate because well I’m cool and amazing like that.¬† I networked my butt off to the point where I networked myself into a chest cold which has me a little down in the dumps but it is a-ok…

I got a chance to meet a ton of fantastic people, both students and healthcare exectutives from around the country and I took the opportunity to establish some connections with some people in hospitals and healthcare systems thoroughout PA.¬† My little schtick was that I came to Chicago to network with people from Pennsylvania, worked out great for me though…

The first day in Chicago it was a raining mess so our group just went down to the conference and registered and then hit up Harry Caray’s for some awesome burgers and sweet potato fries.¬† Sorry for the lack of a picture… We were so hungry we just dove right in.¬† I think I had a burger with smoked mozzarella, onion straws and bbq sauce… was delish…

One of the people I was with had to go to an event Sunday night we all just took it easy at this fantastic hotel..

I didn’t get any pics of our room before we cluttered it but our sink was this flat like basin and we had a massive standing shower, some classmates said it was something like you would see in vegas… Thankfully I have a friend that works for the Hilton chain so she was able to help out us poor grad students… ūüôā

The lobby was gorgeous… totally architectural…

And there was even a bar on the 27th floor called “The Roof” that overlooked all of Chicago… I forgot to take my camera when we headed up the one night for a student mixer but I promise it was amazing…

Sunday night we decided that we had to have some deep dish but were being totally lazy so we tracked down the infamous Lou Malnati’s and were thrilled to find out they delivered…

Once again, no pic of our actual pizza but here’s an idea…

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It really did look like that too… to DIE for… 2 pieces and you were STUFFED…

The next 2 days we were going from 6:30am until 10pm every night… the food at the congress was not great, hardly any options for breakfast outside of a mini muffin or a sad looking bagel,¬†you were on your own for lunch unless you went to a luncheon (the luncheons were ok but not fantastic food wise the speaker was awesome though – Dr. Ben Carson look him up if you have a chance…) and dinners were just finger food that was kinda sad… they were much more about the open bar lol which does me no good given I can have one¬†glass of wine before my meds rebell on me…

Wednesday there was just a breakfast which¬†actually had some croisonts and some fruit yay!… and then one other event before we were on our own for lunch and dinner…¬†Myself and one of the other girls¬†walked down to the famous Portillo’s Hotdog joint and chowed down on some¬†weiners and a chocolate cake shake – yes, the blend up a¬†piece of chocolate cake in the milk shake…

I helped myself to a chili cheese dog and an “everything dog” which has every topping you can think of… was delish! and the poppy seed bun was awesome!

Across the street was the biggest McDonald’s I had ever seen…

After that we heading to the Chicago Meseum of Contemporary Art, which was interesting to say the least lol… and then walked down Michigan Ave in the fog and mist…

I did get some neat pictures of the buildings in the fog though…

Little did I know back home a tornado was ripping the roof off of my high school and destroying houses in my home town (more to come on that soon)…

That evening we waited for another classmate to finish up at one of his events and we went down to the Rock Bottom which was much fancier than the one down the street from me.¬† I dined on the lobster pasta yum… and called it a night since we’d be up at 5am to catch our flight home… The last pic of Chicago I snapped was of the theatre next to our hotel…

Next year I hope I can go back again… I’d prob go out a few days earlier if I could afford it and sight see a bit more… maybe I’ll be in better shape and can take some runs around the city haha… but it was a great time… I met some great people and got to bond with some of my own classmates even more…

See you next year windy city…

well then

I’m in Chicago. Been here since Sunday. Here til Thursday. Had deep dish pizza. Exhausted because the conference has been running from 7am to 9PM non stop. And not really any meals provided but hey whatcha gonna do. I’m trying to network the best I can. Hit up those big execs and get my name out there. Speaking of, I’m heading off to a little meeting with a COO of a local hospital from central pa.

Busy!

When you think you’re having a stroke

I experienced the worst migraine of my life last week…. It lasted from wednesday through sunday and at one point I honestly thought I might be having a stroke or a bleed in the brain… I was so scared…

Just started as a good old fashioned migraine, but it didn’t progress like usual, no jaw pain, it felt like the top of my head was exploding off… my meds barely touched the pain and it got to the point where on Friday I was bedridden…

I should have called the specialists office that day, but I’ve been so fed up with the lack of return phone calls regarding my medication side effects and the fact that I can’t get a straight answer from a doctor that I thought I would just tough it out…

Steve had been out of town all week and when he got back on Friday he said that he would take me into the ER if it hadn’t improved at all… By 5:30 I couldn’t see straight and I was nauseous… So prior to going to the ER I paged my doctor… Well I guess a page at 5:30 on a Friday does not make your doctor happy because he really tore me a new one about not calling the office during the day and then basically accused me of not doing anything to treat the migraine over the past few days…

I was so pissed off and hurt… here I was ready to cut my head off and the doctor is belittling me… he informed me that he didn’t want me to go to the ER and instead would call me in some different medications that should break the migraine…¬† by that night there really had been no change in the migraine but it was dulled enough that I could sleep a bit…

Saturday was ok for a few hrs, as in the pain was manageable with the pain meds he had called in but out of no where around 3 pm my head began to feel like it was splitting open… I started to have blurred vision, I couldn’t formulate sentences and was slurring my speech and my left arm and leg were tingling…

I have never been so terrified in my life… You would think someone like myself would immediate get to the ER for treatment but I completely panicked and ended up in the fetal position on the couch refusing to talk to Steve or answer any phone calls… My hands were spasming and finally I did what no one should do and took extra pain meds in hope that I could atleast fall asleep…

a half hour later I was out cold on the couch and the next morning the migraine had broke… I felt completely weak, my head felt heavy but all I could think was that I could talk, walk, and think… Needless to say if I ever go through that again I’ll neglect to page the doctor and take myself directly to the ER… I don’t know what caused everything that climaxed on Saturday but it physically and emotionally drained me…

So for now as life shows no sign of slowing down I am living on green monster shakes, smart ones frozen dinners, yogurts and luna bars… hoping that a steady diet will eliminate some of the variations that may have played into triggering my migraine…¬† I’ve been going to sleep by 9:30 at night… and just trying to take things one day at a time…

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Thanks for the great support last night and this morning to my rant of a post…

I’m still feeling a bit rough right now… woke up with the back pain and migraine… just trying to get through the next two days so that I can sit on my but and just take it easy for a couple of days this weekend…

Steve has been out of town for work since Monday and I think being alone hasn’t really helped much at all… if anything its forced me to spend more time alone with my own thoughts, scary right???

I guess I just need to really spend some time making a plan of how to attack these health issues… what is the most important to go after first… and how we do we tackle it without making other things worse… After next week is over I will be half done with my residency interviews, stress should be letting up just a little bit… I have the conference in Chicago to look forward to… 4 days in the windy city to network my butt off!!! and then its just getting my position at the university wrapped up in regards to the research I’ve spent the last 3 years working on…

Ok maybe there’s a little more to be done in the next 2 months than I thought but no escaping it… gotta be done… just hoping my brain doesn’t explode before its over…

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yes… that be me right now… physically and emotionally…

I feel bad for not posting lately but honestly I have just not been myself since early February… I don’t know if it’s exaustion or what…

this week alone i’ve cried at 5 different TV shows and been convinced that Minnie saw something super natural in the living room when she spent 20 minutes staring at my dad’s picture on the wall…

and of course now i’m welling up during TV show number six – Our America with Lisa Ling- Faith Healers… can I just say she is one spectacular journalist…

But I digress… my migraines are back… probably relating to the fact that I got an eye infection from my contacts (we think), burst a bunch of blood vessels in my eye and have had double vision (side effect of the meds)… The docs dropped my dosage of the preventive pain meds down and i immediately had migraines come back…

Then a few days later I started getting crippling upper back pain… so for a week I’ve been battling severe pain from the top of my head through my face and jaw down through my neck and into my back… I refrain from any pain meds during the day because I am so busy with school and everything else… By the time I get home it takes a few hrs of laying down and perscription iburprofen to be tolerable…

I’m debating if I need to see a doctor about my back now…

And I’m really just on the brink of wanting to give up… I know I won’t… but I really feel like it…

The more people I meet in my field, the more people I find that knew my dad and they send me to talk to other people who knew him and I just am opening up wounds I didn’t know I had… I am so overwhelmed… and one little push away from shattering… Its terrifying…

I’m sorry for the vent… Sometimes things just kind of pour out of you…