A letter to Minnie

  

Six years ago I let Bob talk me into looking at adopting a Great Dane.  When I went on the adoption page and saw your photo, all stretched out on a couch with a bunch of toys in your mouth I said “her – I want her”. A few weeks later he showed up with you in the back car and my life would never be the same. 

I was convinced we’d change your name but when you climbed into the recliner – all 100 lbs of you we knew Minnie would stick.  Later that year when Bob and I decided we would split up I had a tough decision to make and I’ll never regret it for a minute.  I said you can take anything in the house.  I’m keeping Minnie and the TV.  And we slept on a futon mattress on the floor for a week but I had you and that was what mattered.

   

 

I’m sorry that I chose to have someone in our lives who didn’t love you like you deserved but I hope during those couple of years I loved you enough to make up for it.  And once again I never regret making him leave after you had your first seizure and he said he wish you wouldn’t have made it.  I’m sorry it took me so long to see it.

I’m so glad you had a chance to be loved by so many people, Melissa, Valerie, Bayley, Emily, Rob, Jody… The list goes on… I’m glad you had a grandma that spoiled you silly and a great grandma that called me today so sad that she didn’t get to say goodbye… I’m happy in the end that you had a Dad there that loved you more than you can imagine… That would have done anything for you… That was there with you to say goodbye…  

   

  

And you were a great sister to the brother you let sit on your face  

You were so smart, and a bit of a trouble maker… Bananas, really? Spatulas? I mean you chewed through a child lock once… When you wanted something there was no stopping you…

   

  

You taught me what it was like to love unconditionally again… You saved my life more than once… I would say I have to keep going Minnie needs me…  

You frustrated me at times but ultimately you taught me patience… You were there when I came through the door every day and every moment I got to spend with you was a blessing… Life will not be the same… I plan to bury your ashes outside under the bleeding heart plant that you never failed to roll over at some point each summer… And we’ll it’s a bleeding heart flower it doesn’t get much more fitting than that… You are and always will be my angel… Love you baby girl

  

   

           

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I’m Dreaming of a White Christmas

Well Christmas wasn’t snowy this year… but it was wonderfully full of friends, family, and joy… and I couldn’t ask for much more…

I’m quite emotionally drained from it all… so I’m just going to sum it up with 3 quick pictures…

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An intentionally blurry photo of my mom Christmas morning when the sun was just coming up. To me somehow this captured how this holiday felt for me… just slightly out of focus but like that’s how it was supposed to be all along…

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The cutest present you could ever ask for! A kiss from my princess Minnie who tolerated this bow for oh I don’t know maybe 10 seconds.

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And one super exhausted puppy last night after 20 friends and family were at the house for Friendsmas of 2014… It was a hit and I felt so incredibly blessed to have so many people around… In the words of Bing and Rosemary – When I can’t sleep I count my blessings instead of sheep…

I hope everyone had an amazing holiday whatever it is that you celebrate and that you were able to take a moment to count your blessings even if things were chaotic or plans didn’t go as you wanted… in the end there is always some type of silver lining…

I’ll be back in the new year with lots of great things once I’ve had a chance to recenter myself and gear up for everything that 2015 has to offer!

joy

This little girl may be a handful….

she likes to take naps…

 

She is not impressed by snow that doesn’t come up to her belly…

She firmly believes there is no such thing as too many toys…

She literally takes up half of the living room…

does not agree that dresses make her prettier… lol


And knows exactly the faces to make when she’s in trouble…

Minnie is always there when I need someone (or somedog) to rest on… she never gets angry at me… and she is 125 lbs of never ending love…

its the little things…

Its the little things that kept me going this weekend…

like a puppy who is obsessed with sunshine and walks…

and a portable AC for the bedroom so I don’t have to sleep in the dining room all summer like we did last year… and I like my room colllllld 🙂

I would totally sleep under a down comforter year round if possible…

What little things made you happy this weekend?

Happy Memorial Day Weekend!!!

Hey everyone! First off, big thank you to all of the troops who have served this country… my gratitude for you is enormous… I’l especially be thinking about both my grandfathers who fought during WWII and my dad who served in peacetime Korea in the 70’s…

I hope everyone has some plans lined up and has a great weather forcast… it should be 85 and sunny here this weekend… bring on the tan… HA more like bring on the lobster skin…

I’ll be heading to the lake with Steve and his family for the weekend and looking forward to it like nothing else… 🙂

To refresh my memory and yours… here’s where I’ll be spending the next few days…

cant wait!!!

and i’ll be without a cast on my hand this time… if you recall the one time we made it up last summer I had just had carpel tunnel surgery and was in killer pain most of the time…

But this year, for the first time in 6 years I will have EVERY weekend off and I plan to spend the majority of them at the lake…

Minnie will be staying home for this trip, mom is dogsitting reluctantly but hopefully Miss Minnie can make some of the over night trips with us… I want to see her swim lol…

speaking of Miss Minnie… check her puppers face out from a couple days ago

sitting like a hoooman watching the world go by

i wanna hold your hannnnnd i wanna hold your hand....

Anyways… Once again hope everyone has an amazing weekend! I’ll be back next week!

I like you today Pittsburgh

As discussed in the last post the pittsburgh weather and i are currently having a nasty relationship… But today… oh today I love you Pittsburgh… and this is why…

ohhhh yeah!

no rain… hardly any clouds… nice breeze and temperatures in the 60s…. just how I like it…

Yesterday during another rainy day my boss and project coordinator cheered me up with a couple of going away gifts and a lunch at the posh restaurant Elements downtown…

life is like a box of chocolates... and i got these from my fantastic coordinator Abby 🙂

a beautiful plate that I plan to use for cookies from my boss... (yes that pretty and usable and DISHWASHER safe!!!)

Not only is the plate gorgeous but it benefits a wonderful organization…

And then this wonderful dish at Elements…..

ricotta gnocchi with peas, onions, pesto and ricotta crumbles.... TO DIE FOR... and fresh/locally grown produce...

Today started out with completing my last few reports and cleaning out my office…

extra desk and bosses things on the self...

where i called home the last 3 years... never been so clean...

I stopped at the pet store on the way home for food… and then hit up the car wash because my lovely Envoy was covered in bird poop for some reason… used the laser wash 🙂 reminded me of going through with dad as a kid…

soapy suds!!

so fresh and so clean clean...

When I was little and dad and I would go throug the car wash I would imagine that the brushes were a giants hair and beard washing the car…. lol I was a strange child… I think it was because I would watch Eureka’s Castle with that big giant on it…

Then it was home to walk this happy girl…

yay mom!!! I can actually go outside without getting wet...

We don’t have normal square blocks in my neighborhood and i wanted to veer off of main street and next thing i knew i was semi lost in my own neighborhood haha… 2 miles later there was one tired puppers and one tired momma…

oh yeahhhhhh

Then I went in the backyard and rebuilt one of the cement retaining walls and fixed the bird bath that has been knocked over for I don’t know how long… nothing like making the most of beautiful day!!!

looking good!

mr. sunshine i've missed you!!!!

and then to top off the day….. coupons… chick-fil-a and dunkin d’s!

natalie the extreme couponer!

I hope everyone else has had a wonderful Thursday…. I’ll be off tomorrow and going to a doctor’s appointment and then starting the family scrapbook.. super excited… and Steve will be home for the weekend tomorrow… sleep deprived and all…

rain rain rain

Miss Minnie was denied her walk today because of the constantly present rain that has been hounding Pittsburgh recently… could be worse but still no fun… and the rain brings on my migraines boooo…

yucky sky

rain making the backyard vegetation grow like wild...

i'm not going in the rain... you crazy...

Two things mom... 1. make the cat go away... 2. make the rain stop....

guess i'll just hang out on my super ginormous bed... sigh... maybe tomorrow the rain will stop

that “dog bed” is a double futon mattress… and the only way the puppers will stay off the couch…

so dinner was left over noodles, a chicken breast a half a loaf of pillsbury french loaf… i may eat the other half for desert with some nutella… i love that stuff so good…

anyways, here’s hoping that tomorrow will be nicer… and minnie will get a walk… 🙂 cuz her mommy needs one too…